Tuesday, December 31, 2013

40+ weeks & Happy New Year

Gosh I'm late this week. Well I'm not the only one! Baby boy is late too!! So I guess we're even.  We were expecting him to come early just based on our gut, and now here we are.. late. I was hoping he would be here by the end of the year, but with only 3 hours left this year, that's not going to happen.  And the reality is, all that's important is that we have a healthy baby boy when he's ready to join us.  The doctor originally set the induction for January 2, 2014 at exactly 41 weeks.  I asked if at the next appointment on 40+4, if I could postpone it depending on how it went.  She said yes but that after 41 weeks the risks go up and would require 2 non-stress tests (NSTs) per week where they hook me up on the monitor for 20 minutes and listen to baby's heartbeat. She claimed that chances of needing c-section go up and 41 weeks is some magic perfect timing.  I don't know if I quite believe that exactly, but she also said that plenty of women do go to 42 weeks as well.  I just worry about being induced with Pitocin and my body and Baby Boy not being ready for it, ultimately leading to a c-section. In addition, Pitocin contractions are supposed to be more intense that natural ones, which could make it more difficult to labor without medication.  At 39+4 I was 2cm dilated and the doctor stretched me to 3cm.  She said I was somewhere between 50%-70% effaced and -3 station.  At the 40+4 week appointment I was more or less the same.  I saw a midwife instead of my regular doctor but she said that she would have leaned to 2cm as well, but forced me to 3cm. And that I was still 70% and -3 station. I wish he would drop a little bit. I think that would help start some contractions which would move things along. Both the midwife and my doctor claim that my cervix is favorable for an induction because its already soft and opening. So this is good news I suppose if an induction becomes necessary.  Papi is far more nervous about me being 'late'. So I was glad that the midwife explained that the due dates are +/-10 days.  As a result I postponed the induction until January 6, 2014. Its a Monday and its 11 days past my due date so it lines up with +/-10 days from the due date. It gives him some extra time, but doesn't push it all the way to 42 weeks which would be the latest they would let me go.  Either day we will have missed all the holidays, the New Year, and all the family would have left already.  So why not give him so extra time to try and avoid and induction if we can. Going to work these weeks isn't so bad since the holidays break up the week, its quiet, some of the days are shorter.

I've tried nearly ever method of natural induction out there. Lots of walking, bouncing on an exercise ball, eating fresh cut pineapple, cinnamon & cumin tea, acupuncture (3 times), herbal tea from the acupuncturist (GROSS!!), sex, and having the doctors strip my membranes 3 separate times.  I think I've surrendered my now and will just wait it out. I still can't tell if I've been feeling contractions. I get crampy feelings once every other day or every day.  But its hard to tell if that's just a need to use the bathroom. Once in awhile I also feel tightening but still can't tell if its Baby Boy stretching out.  Nothing is consistent enough for me to consider it a contraction. I know when its the real deal I will be able to tell. We asked the midwife what she thought the weight was, her guess was 8lbs based on the feel. So if that's right, he may get as high as 8.5lbs by 1/6/14.  I've gained 20lbs now, I blame late baby and the family in town the past 2 weeks cooking up delicious food. Since I turn 41 weeks on Thursday and the induction is Monday, I only have time for 1 NST. So Friday 1/3/14 will be my last day at work and I will leave early for the NST.  On Monday morning I have to call 2 hours in advance and make sure they have room for me and then be there at 8am. 

Today is New Years Eve and this year has been truly great to us. I started a new job and Papi was promoted!! We got  pregnant with our first child, our precious son. And next year will prove itself very early this year. In 6 days or less we get to meet Baby Boy. We officially have ourselves a 2014 baby!!

Sunday, December 15, 2013

39 weeks

Dec 14 @ 38+2  Went to the Doula for a birthing class.  It  was more casual, just touching base and catching up on some of the details. Went through a few positions and that might be helpful for labor.  I feel like breathing should come naturally... maybe I'm wrong.  She lent us an exercise ball for me to sit on since I don't have one at home.

Dec 15 @ 38+3 Trying to do what I can to encourage Baby boy that its time to meet us. :) Have been doing a lot of bouncing on the exercise ball to help thin out the cervix and bring him into position.  We were out and about today, running errands such as grocery shopping.  I picked up some fresh cut  (because I'm not going to go to the trouble of cutting up a whole one) pineapple which isn't really my favorite. But why not try it, can't hurt to get some extra fruit in my diet. It supposedly has an enzyme called bromelain that is supposed to work like a prostaglandin, ripening and softening the cervix.  Besides the errands, I was able to convince Papi to go on a walk with the pup. It was only 1 mile but anything that will help.  Either its coincidence or some of my efforts are helping because I lost my mucus plug today!!  I know it doesn't mean labor will start soon but its still shows progress so I'm pleased.  The doula said that you lose the mucus plug when you're 3cm dilated. We'll see if she's right since I'm going to the doctor tomorrow.  Oh, and I've been able to squeeze some very, very tiny amounts of fluid from my breasts. Another exciting milestone. I'm going to go back to bouncing, my have some more pineapple.

Dec 16 @ 38+4 Had another doctor appointment today. I'm still 1 cm and 50% effaced so no progress there even though I lost the mucus plug. I had him strip/sweep my membranes- hopefully it moves things along. With my cervix still being posterior, the cervical exams are quite uncomfortable, the sweep was worse. But worth it if it helps. I think if it's going to work, it will happen in 48 hours. I'll take it.

Dec 17 @ 38+5 This morning I had some type of brown (old blood) bloody discharge. Not sure if it's more mucus plug or bloody show or what. Either way, its expected after having your membranes stripped. Took the dog for a mile walk with the pup this morning. I'm trying! Come on full moon- do your thing!

Dec 18 @ 38+6 Had a regular day a work. I was standing around talking to coworkers around 4:30 when I felt a slight fluid leak. I felt very mildly nauseous as well. Although I STILL havent really been feeling contractions, when I finally got to the bathroom my underwear seemed too wet for it to be nothing. Not knowing if its my water that broken or not, decided to call Papi and have him pick me up from work to get checked out at the hospital. I work so close and it was conveniently the end of the day so I could leave work without making a big scene. I let the Doula know who had just let me know earlier that she has a stomach bug so her partner was on call. My response had been that I wasn't feeling anything so no worries. Well hours later here I was telling her that we were actually heading to the hospital. Turns out she was there too! Although I wasn't sure if this was the real deal or not anyway. When we got to triage it was empty and quiet which wasa  nice sign. They hooked me up to the monitors and ended up waiting for over an hour cause of a shift change. They kept asking me how much fluid I lost and I guessed it was half a cup but its SO hard to estimate. The did an exam and took some samples. This is the third doctor that's given me a cervical exam. She actually thought I was less dilated and effaced than the other 2! That was very disheartening. She also didn't reach as far up there as the other 2 so I don't know what makes of it besides it being less painful this time. Anyway, the tests came back that my water did not break. So we went home and that was the end of our day.

Dec 19 @ 39 weeks We're coming down to the final week. With 4 house guests coming for the holidays I was hoping Baby Boy would make his arrival before they did. It's not looking good but most important is that he's healthy. I would love to avoid a medical induction though so I'm just trying to help my body prepare so the topic doesn't even come up at my next appointment in 4 days. At home in always trying to sit on the exercise ball. And going for walks when I have time/am up for it. While this is a good time of year to be pregnant I hear compares with summer, it is quite chilly for walks. Although it's cold, it's not quite cold enough for snow which means all the precipitation had been rain, which I drin definitely don't want to walk in. I've been eating as much pineapple as I can handle- I brought a bunch to work today. This morning I made some cinnamon stick & cumin tea. I know it doesn't sound great but it's really not too bad when you add some honey. It actually reminded me a lot of the herbs the acupuncturist used to me... I think because they were probably main ingredients in that too. I boiled 2 cups of water, added 2 sticks of cinnamon and 2 spoons of cumin and let it boil for 5-10 minutes. I think I've heard the fact that it's got is supposed to help in some way as well. I wouldn't drink it otherwise, but it manageable to try and see if it helps. I'll try the red raspberry leaf tea too if I can find it. I've also been trying to rub acupressure points on my hands but I'm not sure I'm doing it right. I've been 1 cm for supposedly 3 weeks now. Which is common, but still.. trying to do my part.

When I got home Papi offered to go on a walk with me to help out because he otherwise would never want to do that, especially in this cooler weather. Not to mention it's dark by the time I get home at 5:30. So I was really appreciative of that. We brought the pup and walked probably about a mile and a half our so. I made some steak when we got home and after dinner had another 2 cups of the same tea while sitting on the exercise ball. Followed by the remanding pineapple. Not all the best combo, but again, trying to do my part.

I'm up another pound or so making me up to 15 pounds total. My belly button is partially sticking out- as in the edges are out enough that in a thin, tight shirt you can see it. It dips in, in the middle. I have little bits and pieces of mucus plug still coming or here and there, but nothing like 4 nights ago when I saw the bulk of it come out. My nose has been congested since my cold. I've come to assume it's not going away until I'm no longer pregnant. Hopefully it's not a lifetime thing.

I do love being pregnant! I just can't wait to meet our Baby Boy. I love you so much already.

Saturday, December 14, 2013

38 weeks

This week's doctors appointment was on December 10th when I was 37 weeks 5 days.  The doctor did a cervical exam and said I was 1 cm dilated and 50% effaced! While I knew this didn't mean baby boy would be coming immediately, it is very exciting to hear my body is preparing for labor. Baby boy was in a -3 station meaning that he was in fact engaged, but not too low in the pelvis.  She also mentioned that my cervix was posterior and all of this was very normal for my gestation progress with my first child. I'm hoping my next exam will show some further progress since some women can walk around slightly dilated for weeks.  Now that we're so close I'm going to try to do some extra walking and convince Baby boy that he should come now!  With the full moon coming up on Wednesday the lunar pull may an effect too... or so they say.  I know this gross, but I'm thinking I may have been starting to lose my mucus plug little by little.  This is my first time so its hard for me to tell for sure, but it seems like it may be the case.  Its similar to my contractions confusion, I don't know if I've felt any Braxton Hicks contractions or not because I don't really know exactly what contractions really feel like.  I'm going with I probably have felt them, but nothing too intense and certainly nothing regular. I know that eventually these things will become very obvious, we'll see how far into labor I need to get for them to become obvious.

We have nearly everything we (think) we need. Everyday we all these boxes, its crazy. The big stuff is put together and set up, ready to go.  I got all the thank you cards out so now I can finally finish organizing the nursery! We went to a Newborn Care & Safety class as well.  I feel like there wasn't tons of new information at this point, which I guess is a good sign considering Baby boy could have already been here by now and will arrive at any moment so I better know my stuff!

My belly button is nearly flat but not quite.  I have stretch marks but I think they'll disappear with time. I'm still just easily tired and experiencing heartburn.  My waddle is causing my groin muscles to be a little sore too. So far I'm up 14 pounds which is on track with the doctor's wishes.  Hopefully after delivery I'll drop  a bunch of it considering the doctor thinks Baby boy is 7 lbs, plus the placenta, amniotic fluid, etc.  It doesn't really mater as long as baby boy is healthy.


Saturday, December 7, 2013

37 weeks

Ok now we're REALLY getting close. Baby Boy could pretty much come at any minute now! I have no reason to think I am going into later soon though.  And that's ok.  All I can ask for is that when he chooses to come, he is healthy and ready to be here. Everyone seems to think he will arrive early instead of late, including us. I want him to come sometime between December 12-20 which is 38-39 weeks which is full term.  But this would give up a little bit of time to settle down before the house fills up for Christmas.  We're just so excited to meet him. And we are (more or less) ready for him. This is thanks in part the 2 baby showers we had this past week! One at home with friends during our Thanksgiving visit where my Mom was able to come as well. The other held by my (semi) new team of coworkers.  Both were so thoughtful and sweet! Besides the showers, we've also received gifts from loved ones otherwise. For example Baby Boy's only Tia sent the car seat!!! Something we desperately needed but I was holding off on.  Its interesting to note that after all these gifts, only 12 out 67 registry items have been purchased.  So its true that people will just get you whatever they want.  At the end of the day we are just thankful for the generosity of those around us.

As we've continued to prepare however I did start needing to buy items off the registry. I've been putting it off for awhile, but now that the showers have past I wanted to take advantage of any potential Cyber Monday savings and start really ticking stuff off the list since Baby Boy can make his appearance basically at any point. I took my find to compare and find the best deals, coupons and cash back.  I spent nearly $1,000, but its not bad when you consider we haven't spend almost any money on him until this point.  Babies are expensive, and $1,000 isn't that much when you think about it. I got some nice, high quality, premium items too.  One more thing we're missing is the second car seat. Its less urgent than having at least one, but I think we definitely need 2, one for each car.  With all this buying though, everyday has been like Christmas, receiving boxes filled with multiple items. I still need go through all the shower gift and write thank you cards.  I have every intention of doing that this weekend. Once I do that I will be able to finally organize the nursery (again) and get it looking complete!

At this point I'm feeling pretty large. On Monday the doctor felt my belly and estimated he was 7lbs.  Not sure how accurate that is, but hope he doesn't get to much above 7lbs by the time he arrives!!  My belly button is almost flush. Heartburn is worse than ever but I'm still too stubborn to take anything.  My legs and feet are starting to get swollen at the end of the day. Nothing crazy, but certainly noticeable and some days are worse than others. I'm definitely low on energy when it comes to getting around. If I have to do any walking around I'm moving slow and need to take a lot of breaks. I'm still in high spirits though and none of it seems so bad.  Its all manageable and not enough to make me complain.  However I must be visibly in some kind of distress because those around me, including strangers, ask if I'm ok and if I think I'll make it.  I'll make it :)

Friday, November 29, 2013

36 weeks - happy thanksgiving & 8 months

Wow, so much to obviously be thankful for this Thanksgiving. I'm 8 months pregnant now with a healthy baby boy and no complications, what a miracle. We were able to travel home again so I am also grateful to be able to spend the holidays with my family and visit long time friends while we're here. We also just found out on the ride up here that Papi is receiving a well deserved promotion! It is quite impressive, I am so proud of him. All these things have made this Thanksgiving extra special.

Our trip here should take anywhere between 6-8 hours. However this year it took 10! We left on Tuesday instead of Wednesday this year so we'd have an extra day. We thought it might help improve our trip and beat some of the traffic, but this was easily the longest it's taken us. I did need to stop a little more than usual, with my bladder crushed and the need to get up and walk around because of the higher risk of blood clots we stopped maybe 4 times or so. But I don't think that's what did it.  There was a big storm headed this way, really for Wednesday. But Tuesday rain had already started half way through the trip. That slowed people down. In addition, in the past at least one of us works half a day and we don't leave till after lunch time. This year we didn't and left at 8:30 in the morning. This was nice because we typically have a good part of our drive in the dark when we leave so late, and we don't get in until 9 or 10 and are getting drowsy. That being said, it probably did perpetuate this traffic by arriving at rush hour. So it was nice to be done by 6:30, but the process was more painful.  The ride back is usually better because we leave first thing Sunday morning and get through any real problem areas pretty early. So even though we'll still have to stop more than usual, it should be far less painful.

Before coming I had a regular doctor appointment and we wanted to make sure I was ok to travel. The doctor did a cervical exam which turned out to be painful and uncomfortable. She just jammed her fingers as hard as she could and it felt as though her nails were too sharp, even with gloves on. She said it would get better in the future as everything gets lower or something. I hope she's right, I want expecting that.  The findings of the exam anyway were basically that everything is status quo. Which with 5 weeks left was probably a good thing. However, I still havent noticed Braxton Hicks so I'm hoping for some sign that everything is starting to prepare for labor. Baby boy has started his part at least, he's facing down!!! I'm already a proud Mami! The only thing they didn't do was tell us his weight, or expected weight. She said next time, although I won't see her at my next appointment so we'll see.

Otherwise everything else is good. Just going to enjoy the rest of our time at home and off of work. Its hard to believe there's only 4 weeks left until we expect to meet Baby Boy! We're so excited!

Friday, November 22, 2013

35 weeks

Been feeling pretty tired this week.  Went to bed by 8:30 more than once this week.  And since recovering from my cold I have not cleared up the nasal congestion.  This is a common pregnancy symptom however so I'm not entirely surprised.  Its annoying and doesn't help my sleep.  Besides being harder to breathe its really because makes me breathe more through my mouth all night; this chaps my lips and can hurt my throat a little by the time I wake up.  Its not ideal but I can handle it. The heartburn is definitely the worst and it continues to get more severe with time. The doctor offers medicine, but I'm really not inclined to take anything.  I don't typically medicate and now I'm worried about what side effects it could have on baby boy. Its definitely worsened by pregnancy, but if it stay bad for long after pregnancy I plan on taking action.  Its probably damaging my esophagus and such. For now I have found various things that can help a little.  During the day, sometimes I find I need to eat a little food to absorb the extra liquid in my stomach (too much water?)   Hot chocolate has been doing the trick too.  I don't know what it is, I'm guessing any warm liquid would do the trick, but since I don't drink coffee or tea this is all I've tried. Chewing gum is no longer cutting it. The other day I happen to get up and walk around for 10 minutes and noticed that helped as well.  When its bed time, I just have to go to sleep in a sitting up position.


Thursday, November 14, 2013

33 weeks & 34 weeks

I missed last week because I had cold. It started Wednesday when I woke up with a very sore throat that seemed like it was cause by post nasal drip.  It was painful but I didn't think I was sick.  Made it through the day but had a doctor's appointment that afternoon anyway so I let her know.  She checked me out and agreed it likely wasn't strep throat.  She said that I could take Sudafed and use saline nasal spray for congestion.  It was strange because in the car ride home I started feeling progressively worse.  When we got home I gargled Papi's recipe of warm water with salt and lime.  The next morning I gargled again and my throat was feeling a lot better however new cold symptoms were forming.  Thursday experienced a lot of congestion and sinus pressure. I suffered through the day at work and that night.  I woke up Friday with less pressure but lots of mucus running everywhere.  I called labor and delivery early in the morning from the persistence of Papi bugging me to take something even though its not in my nature.  They told me the same about the Sudafed and added I could take Robitussin DM or Mucinex DM.  I stopped at the pharmacy on my way to work and had to ask the pharmacist about the Sudafed.  He told me it could cause premature contractions and that the other would be equally as 'hazardous' is the word he used.  As someone who is not inclined to take medicine, that certainly did not convince me.  I left with just the Saline nasal spray and Emergen-C (vitamins).  I again struggled through the work day, coughing and sneezing, clearly ill.  I came home and lied down for awhile.  I had been feeling slightly feverish throughout the day but wasn't expecting to have a fever.  Finally I took my temperature and it was 99.7, elevated but not enough to warrant calling the hospital (100.4)... yet. By 7 or 8 however it was up to 100.9.  Called labor and delivery and they instructed me to take 975mg (3 regular strength) Tylenol.  Papi was kind enough to go out and get some with a can of chicken noodle soup, not because I love soup, but I thought it was worth a shot and possibly more nutritious than the peanut butter & jelly I was considering.  And hour later my temperature dropped to 97.7!  It worked! From then on I began feeling better and better, but continued to take it easy through out the weekend.  By Monday all I had left was a runny nose and am continuing to improve.

Recovering from the cold has really been the focus these past couple weeks, but Baby Boy is kicking around like crazy! And today when I look back at my weight tracking I think I discovered that I started 1 pound less than I thought.  Which means that I'm up 9 pounds instead of 8.  No big deal, just funny that I've been confused this whole time... I'm going to try and look back a little closer and make sure that's correct.  My wedding band suddenly stopped fitting sometime around 32 weeks, just overnight, but I think it has to do more with swelling.  Being at 34 weeks feels like I have so little time, 6 weeks is nothing!  And the holidays are really going to make them fly by I think, especially for work.

We both think that Baby Boy is going to come early.  My prediction was December 17-December 20, if I had to guess a day, I'd pick the 18th.  Papi told me he thought the first week of December, like December 2nd! That would be crazy! I can't imagine it begin so soon, right after we return from Thanksgiving travels.  Most importantly we want Baby Boy to be healthy, so whenever he needs to come for that to be true is ok with me.  We'll see if I go the typical week late like they say most first time moms are.

Christmas music started playing on the radio stations the day after Halloween. I would usually find it pretty absurd, however that combined with and early cold front has really got me excited for the arrival of our winter baby. I can't wait to meet him!

Thursday, October 31, 2013

32 weeks

Happy Halloween!!! Even though baby boy isn't here yet, he should've enjoyed his first Halloween because Mami consumed enough candy for 2 (or more) and judging from his activity, he's on a sugar high as well!  Its so fun to think that this time next year we'll be out there taking him Trick or Treating for the first time!  Perhaps I should score a deal on a Halloween costume for next year over the next few days when they go on sale tomorrow.  Seems crazy, but its probably the smart thing to do...

I took a breastfeeding class this week.  It was really interesting! I hope I remember everything when he's here.  If not there will be lactation consultants and the doula to help.  I feel pretty confident about breastfeeding, although I have no basis for my confidence.  I find it whole process fascinating and another miracle of mother nature.  I'm excited for it.

At over 7 months, I'm up 7 pounds and baby boy should be just under 4 pounds himself.  With only 8 weeks left, heck lets call it 56 days, he should nearly double his weight in that time. He feels bigger than before, that's for sure.  Some of these rolling movements make me wonder if I'm starting to notice Braxton Hicks contractions.  They make it seem like I might be feeling a tightening of my uterus, but perhaps that's just him stretching out.  I don't know... I'll have to wait and see.

I'm definitely in a more uncomfortable part of pregnancy.  Its not unbearable, but the heartburn is probably the worst part. Its just so frequent and painful each day-through out the day, and most consistently when I'm trying to go to bed.  I should really just take some Tums or something, but I've never taken anything before and not accustom to treating most ailments.  I'm worried I'll damage my esophagus so that could be a good enough reason to do something about it.  At bedtime, its hard to get comfortable at first trying to avoid the heartburn and a position that won't feel like too much pressure. Staying on my left side or an upright sitting position all night makes me feel stiff and my right shoulder can get inflamed and sore.  I look forward to sleeping on my stomach again one day, and being able to change positions through out the night.  Waking up sucks because my bladder always feels like its going to explode.  I don't typically wake up from needing to use the bathroom- I sleep through that, but if the dog disturbs us (or heartburn once in a while), the best idea is just to give in and go pee cause I inevitably have to go.  Otherwise I can sleep through the whole night but definitely need to go first thing and feels quite uncomfortable laying there.  I'm a heavy enough sleeper that kicks have yet to wake me up.

Doctors appointments are every 2 weeks now. I'm hoping next week we'll have an ultrasound and see which way he's facing and get an estimate of his weight.  Let's see a head down!!!

Friday, October 25, 2013

31 weeks

This week kicks and movements are getting particularly strong! Nothing painful or uncomfortable, just fun. :)   The pressure on my bladder is increasing g however and definitely feeling like I always have to pee. I'd have to say I am having a lot of painful gas pains. Its a sudden new thing I'm not enjoying. But I'm not in constant discomfort, just sudden sharp periods of pain that eventually pass (no pun intended).

The doctor and the books say I may be experiencing contracts now, at least Braxton Hicks. If so, I haven't noticed. I'm still at me five pound weight gain so no changes there. Which is good because of I kept increasing the 11-15 pound goal would be busted in this period of rapid growth.

While the holidays seem far off, knowing there's only 9 weeks left seems very soon! Its exciting but still feels like there's some things I want to get done and out of the way soon. I don't think we'll go to the hospital with a name decided, but my guess is on Lucas.

Not much more for now. Until next week!

Thursday, October 17, 2013

29 weeks & 30 weeks

Only 10 weeks left.  Its unbelievable!  I feel good about the progress I've made in terms of preparing.  Last weekend we went to a childbirth class at the hospital.  It was 8-3 on Saturday, so a full day.  I was mostly satisfied with the answers to our questions and the Labor & Delivery tour.  Intermittent monitoring is available upon request as long as there's no complications which means that I'll be able to get up and move around and try different labor positions.  They're ok with delayed cord clamping until it stops pulsating.  They will allow us to take the placenta home no questions asked as long as no biopsy is needed and we bring a cooler to put it on ice and remove it soon after labor.  So those are all good things.  We were supposed to meet a doula this evening but she flaked on us.  It rubbed me the wrong way but I think I'm willing to meet her still and give her a second chance. She is military as well, familiar with our hospital, and does placenta encapsulation; all reasons why I chose her.  At the class this weekend they said the military has doulas (for a fee) as well, so I'd like to investigate that further.  I'm having trouble finding information so far.

As far as the nursery goes, the dresser is painted and the clothes have ALL been washed, folded and sorted.  I made some closet dividers so I could organize the hanging clothes by size, I just need a few more hangers.  I need to put the rest of the clothes in the drawers but I'm still deciding how I'm going to organize them.  I want them sorted by item type (onesies, shorts, PJs, etc), and size, and season perhaps; but we'll see what I figured out.  Next I need to wash all the diapers and get those put away.  I finally went to a different Babies R Us where they had a great selection of gliders (and everything else too). I found a very comfortable one but I'm still deciding if we should get such a big, fancy one.  Its upholstered and white, which means I'd probably need a cover as well. Its big and would take up a lot of space. And its expensive and I'm wondering how often it will be used to make it worth a large investment.  I need to go back to Target and remind myself how much I like that one before I make a final decision.  Otherwise, the night stand still needs to be painted but that's no big deal. The neighbors gave us some stuff which was really nice and helpful actually too.  A highchair, 2 bath tubs, and a diaper bag.  All things I needed but haven't had the energy to look in to yet.  The highchair we don't need for awhile, but its a nice one so we'll take it.

I also finally signed up for some more classes.  For awhile there, this last child birth class was the only one we had planned.  Mostly because its the only class offered on weekends and all the other classes they offered were only on weekday while we were both at work.  I found a nearby hospital with classes at night that we are actually available for.  So I signed us up for infant CPR, Breastfeeding Basics, and Infant Safety.  I felt way better about that.  I also had been wanting to go this Budget for Baby class that the military offers (cause there's free stuff), but our base also only offered it midday during the week.  It dawned on me to try one of the other bases... and low and behold its offered at night!  So I have that one too.  I hoping that's good enough, between those classes and a doula I should be more than prepared.

I still need to research more about circumcision and vaccines. Those are some very important decisions that I have been putting off, but won't be able to much longer.  I feel a lot of pressure because they are permanent and will directly affect my son's life forever.  Researching baby products always stressed me out because I put a lot of thought into it, but if I chose the wrong product I could always buy a new one.  This is different.  I'll need some more time to figure those out though,

At 30 weeks I'm up 5 pounds. I think that's pretty good.  But with a 15 pound goal I'm concerned I might exceed that in the next 10 weeks.  I understand I'm supposed to start gaining weight quicker and quicker as he's growing more.  He's supposed to be nearing 3lbs now, so he alone has another 3,4, or 5 pounds to gain, let along my milk coming in and all the other stuff.  Hopefully all the weight I do gain is for a good purpose and not extra fat haha.

Finally, we had a 3D/4D ultrasound done!  I was not very interested initially in doing it, but Papi suggested it and I was convinced.  As I'm getting closer and closer, its definitely getting increasingly exciting and real.  He was hiding his face a lot but we got some cute shots.  Its crazy to see his face and know what he looks like.  I'm so excited to meet him.  While I'd like to meet him as soon as possible, I don't want him coming earlier than he needs to be ready so I'm patiently waiting, I know these next 10 weeks, or 70 days.. eek! are just going to fly by. I am becoming Mami <3 br="">




Thursday, October 3, 2013

27 weeks & 28 weeks - third trimester!!!

We've officially hit the 3rd trimester!  While it does feel like a while until we get to meet him and I'm anxious for that, it also feels like its going quickly because there's still plenty to do in the next 12 weeks.  Baby boy continues to increase the strength and frequency of his movements.  We've officially started counting kicks today to monitor his health.  We should expect at least 10 kicks in 2 hours during his more active periods. The doctor said I only need to count once a day but I think I will aim for 2, at least at first, in case I miss one because sometimes I will either be at work or busy where it would perhaps be difficult to keep track. I've come to notice that his active periods are around 8, both morning and night and last an hour or so.  And then sometimes at 11pm as well.  Its also that those are the times I'm most often and rest and have the greatest opportunity to observe and notice.  I could be more distracted during other times, or perhaps be sleeping through it. As time goes on, he may be active enough to wake me up, although I'm skeptical being that I'm a heave sleeper.  Its fun to watch my belly move more and more.  And still find it crazy to watch my belly button disappear.  Papi has felt more kicks as well.  Its definitely safe to say that the kicks are easy to feel (and see) from the outside, its simply a matter of timing and patience since I cannot predict when it will happen exactly.

Grandma was generous enough to gift us the crib and mattress.  We received it today and will likely get it set up this weekend.  It will definitely help the nursery feel farther along even though its theoretically one of the less urgent to do items.  I still need to wash the clothes and diapers among many other things. But once I clean all of those, I can start to put them away in a more organized fashion.  We also need a dresser to put the clothes in but I feel more flexible with that.  We also might look at gliders this weekend.  My to do list is rapidly growing.  The new job is going well but keeping me very busy so my list is harder to tackle.

At our last appointment they measured the fundal height and heart rate which were both right on track.   They also did the 1 hour glucose test and another number of other labs.  I'm still awaiting the results, especially to make sure there's no risk for gestational diabetes.  The glucose test was not as bad as others led on.  The drink was not something I'd drink for fun, but it tasted like a typical fruit punch flavored drink that a lot of kids and other may love.  It didn't make me sick or anything bad, so that was a pleasant surprise.  I also didn't have to fast or eat/avoid and particular food that day.  Now our appointments will start ramping up.  I have one in 3 weeks, and then they will start being every 2 weeks until 35-36 weeks when they will be once a week.  I'm still considering if I want to schedule a 3D ultrasound.  Its not too expensive and I got a great price the maternity/anniversary shoot so maybe its worth the splurge.  I still need to schedule that maternity shoot, and preferably a hair appointment before that!  I desperately need my hair done anyway, so this is a great motivator.

We are coming SO close. I can't wait to meet my baby (whose name is still undecided).  We are so excited!!  I am becoming Mami. <3 br="">

Friday, September 20, 2013

26 weeks - 5 year anniversary

To this point, this has been an anonymous blog as I have never revealed too much of our identity. However I realize as I list a detail here or there, if someone I know happen to read, they could probably put the puzzle pieces together. Nothing necessarily wrong with that, just something I've thought about. Maybe one day I'll go completely 'public' anyway.

Today (September 20th - 26+1) is our 5 year wedding anniversary!  We don't have any extravagant plans,  but its exciting nonetheless. Its quite the milestone in this day and age.  I always wanted to have a baby on the younger end of the spectrum.  Its probably 2 or 3 years past when I might have thought I wanted to get pregnant, but I am typically a believer of everything happening for a reason.  I think we as a couple are in a better place to do so.  And I'm appreciative of the the fact that we had the time to spend together and get to know each other.  I had wanted to take professional picture once a year and did so on our 1 year anniversary. But after that, Papi wasn't having it.  So I agreed that the milestone years would do.  This is one of those years!  However I had the dilemma about if I wanted to do a maternity shoot.  Right now I am very much pregnant, but maternity shots don't typical happen until much later.  So I have already purchased the photo session, but will postpone our shoot a couple months so that it will be a 5 year anniversary shoot with a maternity shoot in one.  Not only will it save a few bucks, but I think it just makes more sense.  I love having picture, but I don't want it to be overkill.  Two photo shoots in a few months will result in too many pictures than I will know what to do with. I really need to get on a Picasa of sorts because my photos are already way too disorganized and when Baby Boy gets here I'm sure it will escalate exponentially. I don't want to risk ever losing any of these memories.  Maybe that will be a good thing to do while I'm on maternity leave.  I have idea about maternity leave that I will actually have spare time, I don't know if that's naive.

This week I gained a pound or pound and a half and it puts me almost back to pre-pregnancy weight, another half pound away.  With Baby Boy at approximately 2 pounds himself, the weight gain is favorable.  I think at this rate I will end up being right on track with my doctor's goal weight gain for me throughout this pregnancy, I believe with the upper limit being at 15 pounds.  I don't really know for sure, but I figure with 14 weeks left and the biggest growth periods rapidly approaching, I could easily fall in that range.  I have complained before about being able to see my bellybutton.  By that I meant the indentation around my bellybutton that originally didn't give my belly the round shape I wanted.  Well I've overcome that, I'm certainly showing enough that its not longer an issue.  And I've recently started to notice that my bellybutton is actually disappearing!  Its shrinking, becoming more shallow.  Papi can tell too!  Its fun watching these subtle changes.  Besides that, baby boy continues kicking and moving more and more, letting me know he's happy.  I love every minute of it.

Today is my last day of work at my current job.  Its bittersweet, but exciting in the end.  I am confident that I made a good decision.  After all, I have never lived with any regrets, so I'm not going to start now.  I will miss many of the people I currently work with, but this will be a good move for my career that my current position would not offer me.  Its the reason I finalized my decision in the first place and its only been solidified over these past few weeks. Its still nerve wracking for any big change and this one is included.  I'll let you know you how my initial days go next week.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

25 weeks

This week I've had people ask if I'm pregnant outright.  So I'm clearly showing at this point.  Lots of movement these days, but Papi isn't patient enough to keep his hand there long enough to actually feel a kick.  I can easily see my belly jump and feel it happening with my hands.  I think feeling kicks on the instead is such a big cue though that anyone not feeling it wouldn't know when to look or feel so its harder for others to catch if that makes sense.  I'm trying to pay attention to the times that Baby Boy is active so that I will be ready to start counting kicks in a few weeks.  Otherwise I will be lost at what hours I should try counting.

I haven't prepared much more in the nursery or purchasing necessities.  I'm feeling good about the registry.  I have a lot of the big decisions out of the way, but of course could keep adding on odds and ends I will need.  I settled on a breast pump but I hope I can find a way to be more at peace with my decision.  I have been on the local baby wearing group site so I can figure out what type(s) of carriers I want. There's so many different types and brands, I don't know what's best.  (Reminds me of my cloth diaper dilemma) I was finally able to arrange to meet with a representative of the group that is going to personally meet up with me and show me a few.  I will be nice to both meet them and get my hands on the carriers.  I'm bummed that its so hard for me to make it to their meetings which are only the middle of the day Fridays.  At least I can go while I'm on maternity leave. I just wanted to at least have a few carriers before he is born.  So I'm hoping this meeting will accomplish that.

Otherwise, still not too much going on.  No news is good new I suppose.  Until next time.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

24 weeks

Major milestones this week! First, we have officially reached the threshold of viability!! Its exciting, yet morbid when you think about it.  I have had serious concerns about Baby Boy for awhile now.  I have been so lucky to have a very smooth pregnancy so far with no complications at this point.  But it is definitely reassuring to know that should a problem arise, he has reached the point of survival outside the womb...  of course with major assistance and plenty of risk at this point, but a comforting still.  I can only hope that he arrives when he is good and ready, on his own time.

Second, I have been feeling him moving around for weeks now.  Kick are growing stronger everyday.  I am trying to pay attention to when he is most active so I will be prepared to start counting his kicks when the time comes.  But this week I not only felt his kicks outside, but I have SEEN a big kick pop out of mybelly!!  It was shocking and so exciting. I have not gotten to the point where I can inform Papi soon enough so that he is able to feel it.  That's what I'm waiting for next.

According to the growth statistics, Baby Boy is about the size of an ear of corn and nearly 1.5 lbs.  I'm definitely taking notice because the scale says I gained 2.5 lbs this week!  That means I'm now up 6 lbs from the 8 I lost.  Its the most I've gained and it freaked me out a little.  There's no problem as long as that trend does not continue.  I cannot afford to gain 2 lbs every week for the next 16 weeks, so I hope it slows down and everything just remains healthy.

Having announce my job change at work has been extremely difficult for me.  The hormones and emotions have been really getting to me.  I believe I'm improving little by little with time but very hard.  I'm blaming it on the pregnancy, but I think it would have been hard either way.

While a lot is going I don't think I have too much more to write. So I think I'll leave it at that!

Thursday, August 29, 2013

23 weeks

This week is more or less a continuation of last week. The nursery is officially painted with the giraffe theme made officially.  Using a decal on the textured wall to paint over and essentially use as a stencil worked out just as I would have liked.  The chances of the decals actually staying up on the textured wall weren't great, and I really like that the colors match perfectly with each other, which I wouldn't have been able to achieve otherwise.  The neutral taupe and light beige compliment each other nicely, and the white furniture with white trim are going to look sharp. But I need to figure out if I want to add to pops of blue somehow, or stick with the neutral theme. 

Baby is kicking away and should be weighing around a pound. Still waiting for them to be able to feel on the outside.  I've gained back 3 of the 8 original pounds I lost. I'm still in very few maternity clothes, just wearing my pants unbuttoned and a BellaBand when necessary to hold up my pants/cover my open zipper.  We still don't have a name.  Seem like Papi is more and more adamant about waiting until Baby Boy gets here so he can meet him and see what name suits him.  Its hard for me not to plan out, but I find it extremely sweet.  So it seems like that's what we'll do.  However we both like the name Lucas so I think that's a good bet, we shall see.

I have finally made my tough decision about the new job and accepted it. I think it should be an exceptional opportunity and everyone seems very nice. While not everything is perfect at my current job, I am well aware of the old saying, "The grass isn't always greener on the other side." With so many decisions to make and changes right now, the thought of adding another big one was just so overwhelming.  And with this pregnant Mami's hormones in full affect, I was mad, sad, angry, confused, stressed, excited, happy, reluctant, all of the above! But when thinking about the potential for my career that this position could offer, the new one just seems obvious.  I can only hope my news it met with support and understanding from my current colleagues.  I will make my announcement on Tuesday.  I am also impressed and feel good that a company is willing to accommodate my maternity leave when I will have only started 3 months prior.  They have also given me the impression that this is a critical time that I will be missing.  I can only take it a compliment and a vote of confidence that they must see a lot in me.  I certainly appreciate it.

Those were the biggest updates for the week.  Until next time :)

Friday, August 23, 2013

22 weeks

This week I had another appointment.  Nothing new, but everything is looking good and that's all I can ask.  They measured my fundal height at 23.5 cm which is right on track.  Heart rate remains at the 140s.  At this point I have gained back 3 of the 8 or so pounds I lost.  This is good because baby is at or nearing 1 pound plus all the other extra stuff going on.  I feel him move a lot, but its still too soon to start counting.  I think I'm starting to feel him on the outside of my stomach when I use enough pressure and am patient.  This is really exciting.  I hope I can time it right so Papi can feel him soon too! 

Nursery paint is purchased, and I've officially decided on a giraffe theme.  I ended up going to a taupe/beige/neutral color scheme.  Most walls will be darker and one wall will have a lighter accent color.  And an adjacent wall well have a giraffe in the lighter color overlooking the crib.  I hope it turns out nice.  Besides the nursery, I'm still trying to figure out the stroller situation.

In other news, I have been spending a lot of my time thinking about another huge decision.  I've decided to change jobs.  Its actually caused me a lot of stress.  It would be easier for me to stay where I am.  But that's not the best way to make career decisions.  Its just very difficult making so many decisions at this time.  I ultimately know that this will be a good move, but its still very nerve racking.  As hormonal as I've been, I have had these weird waves of feeling good about my decision one moment, and feeling overwhelmed and upset another.  It should pass eventually. But that's been slightly consuming me the past few days at least.  I hope my current boss and coworkers can offer me support for my decision.  Until next time...

Thursday, August 15, 2013

20 weeks & 21 weeks

We are at the half way point!!!  And I'm going to call it, I've officially "popped!"  I don't like that you can still see my belly button through my clothes instead of a perfectly round belly.  I feel like it still could be confused to for extra fat, but I'll take it.  Today I had my first person ask me if I'm pregnant.  That takes guts because I don't think she knew I was otherwise.  Its pretty fun anyway.  Fewer and fewer clothes are working.  The Bellabands are definitely helping.  If I'm going to buy any more maternity clothes I want to wait it out.  Get past the summer season and get stuff for some cooler weather when I'll really be big. I feel baby boy kicking more and more, waiting for him to kick hard enough so Papi can feel too.

I've started baby shopping and research in high drive.  I found a local mom of 4 selling a huge amount of clothes on Craigslist that I only paid $50 for.  I struggle with trying to figure out how much newborn size stuff I should need verse 3 months size, and which season to buy for in each size.  It totally depends how big he is and how fast he grows.  So this will be a great stock pile of clothes.  I also bought a stash of used cloth diapers.  It has a variety of sizes and styles, I got it for $100.  They were not in as good condition as I expected so I was a little disappointed.  But I am going to a local baby store that specializes in cloth diapers.  They have a free class where I am hoping to figure out the basics to cloth diapering.  I need to really understand each style and continue to build my stash. Figuring out the quantities of each size is still an issue with the diapers as well as the clothes.  I'm excited for the class.  I also plan to check out some carriers; slings and wraps.  I'm hoping I can try a few there to get an idea of what I will like.

The registry is started as well. I was struggling to decide on where to register; Target, Babies R Us, Amazon.  Then a friend told me about a site that works as a universal registry.  Amazon has that capability, but I like this site better as that's what it is designed for.  I've gotten started and it seems like I've been choosing most of my products from Amazon anyway.  But this site is nice because it will allow people to shop around if they want to try and find a better price, and then mark it as purchased.

The car seat and stroller decision had really been bothering me. I link the two because there are many car seats that are compatible with specific strollers.  And there are so many different kinds of each, its takes a lot of research and decision making.  Car seats are specifically an important decision because it so heavily involves safety concerns.  I was really determined to find a car seat that would last him from a long time. I suppose the typical thing to do however is buy an infant car seat which can be used as a carrier and adapted into the stroller.  The idea of using those big awkward car seats as a carrier has never appealed to me.  However, I tried to have an open mind and consider that once he is here, he might change my mind about that. The theory is that it is convenient to let baby keep sleeping and not need to take him in and out.  Though through doing the research, I was never able to convince myself however that I would really want to lug that thing around.  In addition, many babies grow out of them quickly and need to be transitioned to a new seat.  Regardless, as he grows heavier I would be less and less inclined to want to carry him like that. I hope that the carriers will be a good fit for us, whether it is a sling or a wrap. So moral of the story is that I decided to skip the infant car seat and chose a convertible car seat.  This car seat will good until he is 70lbs!  There is some debate about whether convertibles protect newborns as well as the infant ones, especially if they are born on the small side.  But I chose one that had a good review and has features especially designed for a small baby.  It also means that its a little more expensive, but I think I will get my money's worth since I shouldn't be buying 2 or 3 car seats in the course of a few years.  I am happy with my decision. Now I can move onto the stroller because I don't need to pick one that fits a specific car seat.  There are still a lot of features that I need to sort through before I finalize that decision.  I hope next week I will be able to post that I am at least closer to that decision.  I have also started to pick out other items, and it seems that even ones that aren't quite as safety driven still require a lot of research. It pains me to choose expensive items.  But I am sincerely trying to minimize as well as choose quality products that will last a long time.  I am not willing to make my selections on what is the most popular. So I try and choose those that will mean I don't need many every few months.

Finally, we have started moving around the rooms to prepare the nursery.  This is something I have dreamed about so it is really important to me.  I am aiming for a simple, elegant nursery.  Between dark wood and white, we decided on white furniture to minimize the dust visibility.  I think it can make for a very elegant nursery as well.  We received a free changing table which we freshened up with can of white paint.  I would not have bought one otherwise as I was planning to use a dresser top.  However, it was free and now I think instead of buying a dresser AND a chest, I will just buy a chest. I am hoping this will be enough room and it will end up saving a chunk of money.

Well, I think I certainly made up for 2 weeks worth of posts. Hopefully I'll be back on track next week so I can keep them shorter.  Until then...

Saturday, August 3, 2013

it's a boy!!!! 19 weeks

I purposely waited the extra day like I said so I could post after my anatomy scan today. It was perfect!!! My mom came into town last night so I had the day off from work. That meant I was already low stress and didn't have the anxiety of try to rush back to work. (Oh and I've decided to now refer to him here as Papi he he) Papi picked us up from where we were eating lunch and we all headed over to the appointment. We were early which was good. After 25 minutes of waiting for my actual appointment time, they called me exactly at 1:00. I had been concerned that they would maybe not let family in because I had asked someone at one point and they made it sound like it wasn't allowed. I was also worried that the tech might not be allowed to say anything and I somehow wouldn't be told anything, including the gender today. I would not have been able to handle waiting any longer. Well, neither of those concerns were an issue and we had the sweetest, most enthusiastic ultrasound tech ever. She was so nice and explained everything thoroughly. She would explain what she was looking for and why, and tell me everything looked perfect after each explanation. She told me that their regular scan is the equivalent of a high risk scan elsewhere, which was fine with me! They take tons of measurements like the belly, head, brain, femurs. And they check every little thing. We saw the 4 chambers of the heart pumping at 141 beat per minute, which is approximately what I have been measuring at home a few time a week.  We also so the kidneys, stomach, arteries, diaphragm, full lips, 10 fingers, 10 toes, and a penis of course! We were right! Its a boy!! :D. I was never really sure , but I think I would have ended up being really shocked if it was a girl, I can't explain it. Our baby boy was moving and waving and even rolled over in the course of then scan.  And like I said, she kept saying everything looks perfect with baby, as well as my ovaries, the placenta, and the amniotic fluid. He was measuring right on track and the measurements gave an estimated due date of December 24. So close they wouldn't change my original but it was interesting. He was approximately 11oz. Its crazy to know that in the same amount of time he will gain another 6lbs. I'm relieved to know he's right on track since I still haven't gained this weight. I have a pound I keep going up and down with. I'm happy to have not put on weight and still have been nourishing my son. Back to the ultrasound- it was so special to have my Mom there. And Papi too but I've been spoiled be able to share the joy with him at all my appointments so far.  We don't know how close to birth my mom will be able to come back and meet her grandson so the fact that she could see him squirming today and share this time was simply awesome.

I'm still feeling good. My Mom agreed that if she didn't know I was pregnant she could not tell and would just think I'm chubby. But I'm definitely bigger, just not that super round belly to make it obvious.

Papi has been super sweet; touching my belly, talking about the baby, was enthusiastic today about the news, and even painted my toes since they're hard to reach. He's so great.

I AM BECOMING MAMI!

Friday, July 26, 2013

18 weeks

Well I have this tend of being late but as long as I get it done that's all that matters, right? This week excuse: vacation!  Worked out to be a babymoon I guess, or as close as we'll probably get to one. It was visiting the mother in law in the Caribbean and the sister in law was there too. Def a good time but I don't know if a babymoon is technically supposed to be alone time. The only other time off we really have (semi) planned is Thanksgiving to go visit my family and friends. We'll see if a 7 hour road trip at 36 weeks pregnant is a good idea when it comes closer.

Anyway, this vacation was probably well timed. I definitely had to refrain from a few activities I may I have done otherwise (example: jet skiing), but I was still able to carefully do most of the things I wanted. The family recognized that I am showing so I was glad about that. As did strangers- on a boat... In a bathing suit... With the family rubbing my belly and referencing baby.. But it counts!

I've decided that what I thought was fetal movement was in fact baby!  It is often and regular enough that it can't be just digestion. Its so fun and I can't wait till they get stronger and more noticeable. Also for when they can be felt from the outside. Right now I would describe them as feeling like when your abdomen twitches or has a spasm.

In just 1 week from today I will finally have the anatomy scan!!! So exciting! And even more special, my mom will be here. Like I think I've mentioned before, I'm not sure if they allow family in the room which sucks, but we'll have to see how it works.
I think it will make it all that much more real. And we can finally talk seriously about names. I think its going to be tough so we need get started asap.  I think they'll also go over the results of the 1st/2nd trimester screening. They said they would only call if there was a reason for concern and I haven't received a call. I also checked the lab results online and the description of all the analysis sounded great so that's very reassuring.  Now we just have to wait! Maybe I'll conveniently be another day late for next week's update so I can reveal the BIG news!!

Thursday, July 18, 2013

17 weeks

Ha! I didn't forget! You did not get a mid week update because my appointment was uneventful. I was so disappointed that I didn't get the ultrasound I was expecting. The wait was long it built my anxiety, then the disappointment, then I had to go to the lab where they were so backed up it took 2 hours. I literally cried it was so frustrating.  The doctor used a Doppler and listened to the heartbeat, she said it was good. She doesn't know I have a Doppler which is why that was as exciting as it might otherwise be. Luckily the anatomy scan isn't too far away. Just about 2 weeks now.  It will be fun because my Mom will be in town and will get to come too. She seemed pretty excited about that as well. I guess I can survive the wait. I'm just grateful that the baby continues to be healthy. The reason for the lab visit was to do the second part of the genetic screening. With these two tests they will call me only if there's anything of concern. So I hope I don't hear anything!

I went back down half of the pound I gained since losing 8. The doctor was concerned cause she thought I lost 11 pounds.  I think I should expect to start going up again soon. The baby should be about 5-5.5 inches by now. That's like the size of your hand! They grow up so fast... Haha. Movements are continuing but nothing that has assured me that its definitely baby and not just gas. Still waiting for that one distinctive kick.  And instill havent popped into a round pregnant belly, but I think I look huge and purchased some Bella Bands cause none of pants my pants really close well. We are going on vacation in the morning so I'm really excited to get away for a week. We will be staying with the mother in law and my sister in law will be there too. It will be a lot of fun. They are the first ones to see me that don't see me everyday like hubby and my coworkers. So I hope it looks obvious to them that I'm bigger because if they can't remember that I wasn't always this fat that will suck haha.
Anyway, I intend to write next week, but cut me some slack if I forget or am late... I'm on vacation!

Friday, July 12, 2013

16 weeks

Well I felt like I had an excuse for last week... it was the 4th of July, we were both home from work,   But yesterday, nope, no excuse. Biggest news this week has been that I announced to my boss at work.  From there, my teammates and now the whole department knows.  I have received such a positive, supportive response, its really great.  I'm so happy to share this joy with those around me.  I admit its still nerve wracking to be telling people.  I have had the best pregnancy, but I can't help but shake off that last bit of nerves about the possibility of something going wrong.  I know that normal and I am making the biggest effort to enjoy every minute of my pregnancy.  Beyond the office I have also told other friends that I am not as in touch with as the first round of people, but still people I wanted to tell personally.  I made a point of telling pretty much everyone I wanted to tell myself because I plan on announcing on Facebook on Monday.  We finally have another appointment on Monday and I'm really hoping that that we will find out the gender!  the last ultrasound/appointment was at 10 weeks if you can remember that far back.  So almost 2 months later we'll find get to see baby again!  The most important part is that we see a healthy baby, but at this point, it is very plausible that the anatomy should be distinguishable.  If not though, I already have the official anatomy scan scheduled for August 2nd. So that's the latest we should have to wait to know.  This will allow us to seriously talk about names.  We've mentioned a few and talked a little, but nothing decisive. So exciting!!

As far as symptoms go, well, I'd say my appetite has improved, however still not perfect.  Peeing more than ever. Sleeping was becoming difficult because I was not that comfortable to lie on my stomach and you can't lie flat on your back, so I had to stay on my side.  I have slept on my side in the past, but not for an entire night without switching it up.  It was really painful for my shoulders.  I have since purchased a Snoogle pillow.  Its only been a few days but I think its really helped.  It would really help for sleeping on my side, but my heartburn has prevented me from using it that way.  Its also been really nice for sleeping on my back with an incline.  Its safe, comfortable, and helps with the heartburn.  I haven't lost weight the last couple weeks, but my gain has been very reasonable, approximately a pound. So we're at 8lbs down, 1lb up.  I've continued to stay active so I'm hoping I keep my overall gain very healthy.  While I haven't gained much, I can definitely tell I'm bigger.  For the most part, my coworkers have said they can't tell, which I'm not surprised.  I'm in that awkward stage where I just look fatter I think.  I haven't "popped" yet.  Regardless, my pants don't fit well, and my stomach is just plain bigger.  Since I wasn't skinny before, I'm not surprised that people that see me everyday didn't notice as the subtle changes took place.  When you look at the comparison from the beginning though, I think its clear that I'm already bigger.


Sorry for the poor quality, I just took a picture of the camera screen to show a friend and I haven't uploaded the pictures onto the computer yet.

Anyway, that's all for now.  Maybe this week you'll be lucky and get a double post.  I owe you an awesome update on Monday that at least consists of a healthy update, some new pictures, and a gender reveal if we're lucky!  I've said it before, but I'm sticking with my BOY guess for now.  The chances are 50/50 so I like my odds.  We'll see. I AM BECOMING MAMI!!! :-)

Thursday, June 27, 2013

14 weeks - 2nd trimester

There's all this debate about when the 2nd trimester officially starts, but no matter what school of thought you come from, I'm in it no matter what! And it feels great. A little less worrying and now that the announcements went out I can talk about it openly making it feel more real. I got calls Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Wednesday and today! I can't believe how long it took for some people to get it. But everyone... except my Mom... got the riddle so I'm very pleased about that. I will start gradually letting the next wave of people knowing now during the next week or two. That will give me time to tell everyone by 16 weeks and then probably go Facebook public after our appointment July 15th. I'm thinking that way I can hopefully do a gender reveal at the same time. I've considered if I want to do an elaborate gender reveal or not (elaborate defined as something more than a simple phone call or text with "Its a Boy!"). But because I did the cards as the announcement, I don't think I'll do another mail card. Perhaps Ill think of something fun, but I don't want to do anything that will hold up my announcement on Facebook so we'll see.

I tried again to schedule the anatomy scan (even though I'm hoping to find out the sex at the 16 week 4 day appointment), but they only have their schedule out 4 weeks it seems. And my doctor told me they're scheduled between 18-22 weeks, but turns out its 19. So even though they said to wait 2 weeks, I'll still try next week to see if I can come in exactly at 19 weeks.

I continue to hear a great heartbeat more in the 140s recently which is super reassuring. Have i mentioned yet that i think its a boy? I know I talked about other old wives tales. Well as far as heart rate goes, under 150 I believe I supposed to be boy. Anyway, my appetite is still in a funk, but I don't mind the little bit of weight loss I've had so far with 8lbs down. I keep aware to make sure I've gotten in plenty of nutritious foods even though so many things don't sound very appetizing. Continue to pee up a storm.  And the questionable fetal movements continue. Hopefully I'll figure out soon if I was right or if it just all that gas. What I have been missing most has got to be sushi with other fish/seafood (tuna, raw oysters, smoked salmon, etc) and runny egg yolks close behind.  Runners up are deli meats and raw cookie dough.

Well glad I didn't forget to tell you about becoming mami this week! 26 more to go, lol!

Friday, June 21, 2013

13 weeks

I can't believe I forgot again.  Unless I have something as an ultrasound to share there's no guarantee I suppose.  Also, a lot of time I come home from work tired, I have to cook dinner, and do whatever else. So that adds to it as well. This week was kind of my goal week, I just felt like 13 weeks would make me feel so much better.  I do feel very good about this whole pregnancy, even though there's debate on when the 1st trimester ends; 12 weeks, 13 weeks, 13.3 weeks, 14 weeks.  So regardless, I'm close and I feel good!

Anyway, this week I officially sent my announcements to our parents and some of our closest friends. I anticipated that they would receive it either yesterday or today.  I received some phone calls yesterday and one today. We still waiting to hear from a few more people.  I don't know if it hasn't gotten to them yet, if they haven't checked their mail, or if they got it and didn't understand it.  I sent a riddle of sorts and 2 of the 3 people so far understood the riddle.  But I was thinking if someone didn't understand the riddle, they'd still call.  Hopefully we receive most of our other phone calls tomorrow.  Anyway, its very exciting and fun to share the news with our loved ones.  Its something I've been looking forward to for awhile.  However, I admit, its also pretty nerve racking.  Not that it could possibly have any affect on the health of the pregnancy, but it makes it just that much more real.  So those that I've talked to though have been very happy and excited for me of course, its great.  One of my friends already offered to help throw a shower!  The other asked about it and I just don't know if its a foe-pah these days to throw your own shower or what.  I have plenty of time to figure that out.

So otherwise I received the doppler and I have been successfully hearing baby's heartbeat each day. (I can't remember how much I spoke about it in my last post.)  I think I felt baby move at work on Wednesday at 12w6d.  I don't think they typically say a first time mom feels movement at this point, so I'm not sure.  It was great to imagine it was.

Thursday, June 13, 2013

12 weeks

This is not yet the end of the first trimester, but it feels so great to hit 12 weeks! I have a few updates. With the near 6 week wait until my next ultrasound, combine with ending the first trimester with a final ultrasound before announcing, I caved an bought a fetal doppler.  I hadn't planned on it because its so often that people can't find the heartbeat with it, which often causes unnecessary stress.  But I caved and it arrived in the mail yesterday.  I had to test it as soon as I walked through the door.  It definitely take some practice and patience, but I did find a heartbeat!  It was faint enough that the doppler could not pick it up, although they are known to give false reading regardless. I counted it out though and I consistently counted a 168 beat per minute hear rate.  It was so nice to hear.  By the way, old wives tales would predict this heart rate as a girl.  However, my acupuncturist predicted boy, as does the Chinese calendar and the "Eye test." Also, I had my last acupuncture appointment! You never know if it helped or not, but I told myself I would go above and beyond this pregnancy and I did.  And so far, all is well!

Today I did part one of the plasma screen which will test for chromosomal abnormalities. However, they won't take the next blood draw until my appointment at 16w4d.  Like I explained, I will not get any results until both parts are done.  For now I'm just glad I was able to get those appointments on the same day because it can be a hassle to get over there and leave work just for a blood draw.

Otherwise, I've been seriously considering now how and when to announce.  Its going to be soon I think cause I really want to tell family first but I'm also dying to tell a friend I have here. I will be excited to share it with someone in person since I can't do it with most of my loved ones.  I have a few different ideas up my sleeve that I think I'll be able to share on here once they're done.  I'm excited to get started.

My symptoms are not bad anymore.  I still feel gassy as well as picky about what foods I feel like eating but definitely have a bigger appetite than before and eating more.  I have continued to lose weight though. I'm down about 7 pounds I believe. Still don't mind that!  Hopefully next week I'll be able to share a picture of our announcement.  We'll see how the timing works out.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

10 weeks 5 days ultrasound





Ok, I know I missed my 10 week post, but I knew this was coming up, and to be 100% honest... I plain forgot, hehe. Nothing drastically exciting was going on, pretty much the same symptoms. Only thing is I took my final dose of progesterone like I explained I would in a previous post. Outcome... A better appetite (includes less to no nausea), but still not perfect. Otherwise, I went to the class I talked about but like I suspected, nothing new and a bunch of paperwork. And the blood tests. Anyway, who cares???? There he is!! Isn't that just the cutest ultrasound yet? Its so precious to finally see the human form. The hubby was there and had no idea it was going to be so recognizable. I know because, how would he unless he's been on pregnancy boards nonstop like me? (I don't think so!) But he even asked, like whoa the arms and everything are already that defined?! How big did you say it is?? The answer is just 3.5cm... So hard to fathom for me too. But the doctor explained to him that the baby is pretty much completely formed and now just has to grow! I always read about babies dancing all over the screen, but watching the baby wiggle around in there was so fun. I'm so glad hubby has been able to come to all my appointments so far and watch baby progress with me. The heart rate was 172, which we heard for the first time too! At 7 weeks it was there, but only 117 and we could hear it, just see the ultrasound pick up the waves. Not only could we hear it, but you can see the little heart beating very clearly. I was in awe I was nearly speechless. The doctor was very pleased with the heart rate, all the measurements and the progress since almost 4 weeks ago! She said I could start telling people because the risk of miscarriage has dropped to 0.5%, SO comforting. I think I'll still wait till 12 weeks though. I had started to think in should wait till 13 or 14, but she may have swayed me. At least to START telling people. I am really anxious to share with our immediate family. Then some close friends. By 14 I can see myself telling people at work. I would consider waiting a little longer, but I don't think I can hold out much longer than that to put it on Facebook, and they're on there so I'll need to tell them around then. It will also make sneaking out for appointments way easier! I'm really looking forward to announcing in general and have me scheming on how I want to do it. I've even been considering making a trip home to tell family and friends in person. It would be a hassle because of the drive and the short amount of time we'd have to actually be there. Or if we flew it would be expensive and an issue because we wouldn't have a car when we got there. But I've been dreaming about this for so long that if love to tell people in person! We'll have to decide soon. Back to today's appointment, got the results of last week's blood tests. All is fine, negative on cystic fibrosis :) probably will need a ruebella booster after delivery, etc so far so good. I go back once more for just a blood draw.  This will be the 1st of a 2 part plasma screening that will test for abnormalities such as down syndrome. Its not complete until the second draw in the 2nd trimester. Between this and anatomy scan, they are able to identify your risk level for various abnormalities. Besides that, I don't go back for 6 weeks!! That's the longest I've waited yet! The timing IS really cool though because it will be days before we leave for vacation to see hubby's family. At 16+ weeks, I think the doctor should be able to have a guess at the gender!!! She didn't mention it, but from what I've read, it seem extremely plausible.  It would be so special to be able to tell them in person.  Otherwise I will have to wait until the formal anatomy scan, which the doctor was saying that the hospital will definitely not schedule it before 18 weeks.  We will be away then, so I'll have to schedule it anywhere between 18-22 weeks.  If I have it my way, I will schedule it the day we get back, lol. Hopefully we will already know that information though and it won't matter.

I can confidently say I AM BECOMING MAMI!

Thursday, May 23, 2013

9 weeks

Another boring week. And by boring I mean I didn't have an ultrasound and no news.  But I think the old saying, "No news is good news," is quite suiting in this instance.  I just count my blessings that I haven't had any complications so far.  That's not to say that I'm not anxious to get back in there for another ultrasound.  The almost 4 week wait is killing me.  I go into the office on Tuesday, in only 5 days, but its for a nurses visit. Its a 'class' i.e. a power point presentation about pregnancy.  Not to say I know it all, but it is pretty basic, AND I already went to this last year, so I'm not anticipating anything too new or exciting.  I may also get some blood work done as well.  But it will probably take at least a couple days to find out the results.  I've been trying to plot out a way to get a nurse to at least do a doppler with me. I'm going to tell her that I'm think of getting one but wanted to see how it worked first.  We'll see if my scheme works, I doubt it though. Luckily I just have a week and a half more to wait till I actually get another ultrasound.

I've been taking progesterone since the day I tested a positive on a pregnancy test.  There's no way to know if it has contributed to my current success or not, but so far so good, right? I'm almost out, and only have about a weeks worth left.  I let the doctor know and she explained that you stop progesterone at 8-10 weeks because the placenta takes over. It will be nice to stop taking them because of the side effect of discharge (sorry TMI!).  But its also a little nerve racking because its kind of like a safety blanket for me, as irrational as I know that sounds. Most if not all of the pregnancy symptoms I've been describing the past few weeks can probably be attributed to the progesterone. So I guess that's good, but like a lot of women seem to feel like the symptoms are reassuring.  Mine are quite possibility a  false representation. We shall see

My symptoms haven't changed still, besides possibly some increased fatigue.  One thing I could note is that I've lost a little over 5 pounds so far. My favorite side effect yet! :)

Thursday, May 16, 2013

8 weeks

Without an ultrasound to share and all the season finales on TV tonight I almost forgot my 8 week post!! It feels like an exciting milestone... 2 months down, only 4 weeks until the first trimester is over, baby becomes a fetus and takes a more human form. Its also meaningful to me because my first miscarriage, while it occurred at 10 weeks, I was told to be measuring at around 8. So that means that I've reached the same point in this pregnancy as I did my first. Of course I'm online reading baby boards and everyone is always excited to surpass this point. I won't have another ultrasound until 10+5 but I'm still feeling very positive. Some of my favorite things to do are 1. Of course to dream about baby, but as a more immediate gratification, think about sharing the good news with all my loved ones and how I should do it. It's fun!

By the way, the acupuncturist made his gender prediction based on my pulses!! His guess is.... BOY! Very exciting and interesting to see if he's right.

I'm still feeling mostly digestive symptoms:
Mild nausea
Food/food smell aversions
Gas
Bloating
Mild, random constipation (or feeling "backed up"
Little appetite
Fullness

Thursday, May 9, 2013

7 weeks ultrasound

We saw Baby today! I'm so happy.
Measuring exactly 1 week farther along than I did a week ago :) Perfect! So even though I'm 7 weeks along, Baby is measuring .65cm which makes him 6 weeks and 4 days. Its kind of hard to tell with the measurement, but I see the little arm and leg buds too. Its so cute to see the little body coming into the human form. The doctor was having a hard time getting good pictures and measurements etc because Baby is squished up against the wall.  She said there's nothing wrong with that, just made the ultrasound a little tough.

It was also hard, but we got a heartbeat!!!  Here's  picture:
The heartbeat will grow stronger as the weeks go on. It was hard to hear the heartbeat but we could see it and that's all that matters.  Doctor is happy with how things are progressing.

I've been so lucky to watch Baby's progress so closely these past few weeks.  It has been very reassuring.  Its been tough to get out of work but I wouldn't trade it for anything.  Now my next appointment isn't until the end of the month! Its crazy to think that during the month of May I will get to weeks 6 through 10! I will be so excited when I'm out of the risky period and I can share my great news with those I love.  My next appointment will be a pregnancy class and nurse's visit I understand.  I don't expect to see the doctor and I don't believe there is an ultrasound.  It would be so cool though because I will be 9.5 weeks which is such a cute ultrasound as far as I've seen.  And that means I will only have to wait 2.5 weeks instead of the 3.5 I'm assuming it will actually be because the appointment I have a week after that I will most definitely have an ultrasound. As long as I continue to have a healthy pregnancy is all I'm really concerned with.

Current Symptoms:
1. All previously mentioned symptoms, slightly intensified
2. Mood swings- Crying, Joy, Fury
3. Digestive upsets (however no vomiting/morning sickness)
4. Fatigue is increasing

Bottom line is, I can be uncomfortable at times, but nothing serious or anything that interferes with my life... at least so far.

Thursday, May 2, 2013

6 weeks ultrasound

I know its grainy but I had to crop it because this was the best view today and it was from a far away shot.  Anyway, the round circle is a the yolk sac and the small mass to the right is baby.  :)   We were hoping to see a fetal pole or heartbeat but it seems to be too soon.  We're not concerned because the growth is good otherwise.  Like I mentioned last time, the gestational sac was 7mm then, now its 13mm!  I've read that its supposed to grow about a millimeter a day. By that logic I've grown twice as fast in the 3 days with the additional 6mm since then.  The doctor actually said she thought she could see a flicker (of a heartbeat) but she had to get her face REAL close to the screen and it would definitely not be something where she could measure the heartbeat.  The yolk sac just measured 1.5mm itself, so that gives you an idea of how tiny 'baby' would be to try and measure/see that.

Last time, the 7mm gestational sac was too small for the computer to determine how far along I am.  Today, I measured at 5 weeks 4 days.  Makes complete sense to me considering the 6 weeks is based on last menstrual period, with the assumption that you ovulated on day 14.  Well, since I ovulate day 16-18 those measurements would make total sense. Also, another reason probably why we don't quite see the heartbeat, its still probably a little early.  The doctor had already scheduled another appointment for me in a week before I got there.  So at my next appointment I will be 7 weeks (based on LMP) and we should very likely be able to see a strong heartbeat by then!!! Yayyy :-D 

All these appointment have been so difficult to leave work in the middle of the day.  I've managed though and I don't think anyone has caught on or is suspicious.  And I'm just so grateful I've had so many opportunities to see the baby and the progress... and that my doctor has been so enthusiastic and proactive!  Its very encouraging and comforting.  I've felt very positive about all this so its very exciting.

If not sooner, I will post my 7 week ultrasound next week :)

Monday, April 29, 2013

first ultrasound!!! 5 weeks 4 days

There's our baby!!! As promised, I wanted to get this up ASAP. I was hoping for a heartbeat but its too soon. I was crazy nervous on Saturday but today I was feeling SO good and very optimistic surprisingly. Don't get me wrong, I was shaking with anxiety on the way there but I felt good. I'm so glad hubby was able to come. :) we saw the gestational sac and yolk sac. Doctor said they don't expect to see the yolk sac until 8mm and I was 7 so that was a good sign! We go back on Thursday, not Friday like I had thought. I will be exactly 6 weeks according to LMP. The doctor said that hopefully we'll see the fetal pole then. I'll be sure to post them then. Yay!

Thursday, April 25, 2013

5 weeks

My OB has been AWESOME these days.  She has emailing me with updates non-stop cause she knows I'm anxious to find out the results.    I did the first HCG blood draw on Monday and got a 166.  I did start Google-ing even though I KNOW that only the change matters.  I didn't let myself get too far.  Did my second blood draw Wednesday morning and feverishly awaited the results all day. The doctor finally got the results a 5:00pm and shared them with me, it was great new.  My HCG was up to 512! She wanted to see at least a 53% rise. This was more than doubled!  Its such relieving news. There are no promises or guarantees, but it makes me feel pretty good.  So we still have the appointment for Monday's ultrasound!! I'm just praying that we receive more good news.  It will be very early- approximately 5 weeks 4 days,  but maybe we'll be lucky and see the flicker of a heartbeat.

Current symptoms:
1. Increased heartburn
2. Sporatic bouts of mild nausea
3. Decreased appetite with slight food/smell aversions
4. Tender nipples

I'll be sure to update you after Monday's ultrasound!

Monday, April 22, 2013

4 1/2 weeks

Like I mentioned, today I went to the lab for my HCG quant.  I have online access to my medical records and lab results, however they have a delay in posting the results... SO WHAT IS THE POINT?!? Anyway, its probably for the best because I would look up the results and start agonizing over the numbers.  When all that really matters is how today's HCG levels compare to Wednesday's.  I go to the lab at 7am, so hopefully my doctor will call me before the end of the day on Wednesday to let me know the results.  On Thursday I will be 5 weeks along.

Signs I knew I was pregnant:
1. Not very long after ovulation I cried at work. We all have our bad days- and my boss has them even more!  When my boss has a bad day it often seeps into mine one way or another.  But still, the only other time I can remember crying at work is the last time I was pregnant (but didn’t know it).
2.  Not just this Saturday, but last Saturday was cycle day 25, 7 DPO I could not pull myself out of bed! I'm quite the early riser on weekdays, but even on weekends, its rare that I wake up past 9am.  Well I think I finally dragged myself out of bed around noon that day.  And continued to lie around the rest of the afternoon.  I felt like a waste of life.  But I've said it before, fatigue was my most prominent symptom last time I was pregnant.  So of course it crossed my mind.

I went to acupuncture this Saturday and he asked me if my period came cause of course he knows my cycle, I told him 'no'.  (His English is not perfect so with an accent so its a little cute.  Then he was perplexed, 'When will it come?!'.  So I told him, 'I'm pregnant!'  He seemed surprised and excited. Covering his face, 'Really?!??'  So, he changed my treatment for pregnancy of course.  I have 1 more treatment left in the 10 I pre-paid for which reduced the cost.  At that time I will be a little over 5 weeks. He told me that he hope I can come until 11 weeks because it really helps to prevent miscarriage.  Of course he wants to sell me more treatments, but I do have some belief in this stuff, I mean, I did get pregnant right!  I will decide this coming Saturday.  6 sessions will get me to the "safe" point, the prepaid rate for 6 sessions only saves you $30.  And there's no refunds if god forbid something happened, or on more positive note- what if we went on vacation and missed 1 week, I would end up paying for a session I didn't need.  If the acupuncturist knows what they're doing, I don't think there's any harm in acupuncture after then, but it is expensive ($70 a session!).

Anyway, hopefully by my next post I will be reporting excellent HCG quant results and perhaps even news from my first ultrasound visit... or at least have the appointment set up.

I AM BECOMING MAMI!!!!

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

positive

I tested on Monday (cycle day 26, 8 DPO-days past ovulation), cause I couldn't help myself.  I tested Tuesday because I was going to my doctor's appointment that I explained in my last post, and the result would drastically change the conversation and appointment.  Today was day 28, 10 DPO.  This is the day I've typically been getting my period more or less.  I still couldn't help myself from testing again.  Luckily I still have some cheap pregnancy tests that came with all the ovulation strips i bought online.  Welllllll, YES I'm pregnant!!!  God it feels so good to say that!  After my doctor, your the first I'm telling.  Have I mentioned that hubby is away again?  Well he is.  I'm going to wait to tell him when he gets back.  The next people I will tell are the dentist and my acupuncturist.  That sounds funny I think, but its true.

On a serious note, I'm as nervous as I am excited.  I will be 4 weeks along tomorrow so its VERY early.  I can only pray that this is a successful, healthy pregnancy.  But I am well aware of the reality that nothing is guaranteed. I think I will feel better in 8-9 weeks when my first trimester is over, but I may very well continue to be a nervous wreck.  The first time I was pregnant I had to follow procedure.  The lab will test you to confirm you're pregnant (pretty much the same at home pregnancy test).  And then you get an ultrasound scheduled for the 10 week mark.  Until then, you're on your own and just wait. This time will be different because of what I've gone through. I will be doing consecutive HCG quants which will show my doctor my actual levels of HCG and the rate at which they're rising.  This will tell us a lot. Most importantly, it will show if the pregnancy is progressing as it should.  Every 2 or 3 days it should be doubling. So I'll head to the lab on Monday, and then again on Wednesday (when I'll be almost 5 weeks :]  ..that never gets old!)  I will also be taking progesterone. TMI ALERT:  Lets just say, I'm not taking it orally, if you catch my drift.  The doctor explained that this treatment is best right after you ovulate, but has the possibility to help even though I've clearly conceived.  Apparently I'll take it for 8 to 10 weeks! As I said, there are no guarantees.  So finally, after my HCG quants at the lab, we'll determine the next plan of action depending on the results.  Most likely we'll schedule an early ultrasound. SO EXCITING.  Its so unfortunate that I have this looming concern of something going wrong that prevents me from laying back and enjoying every second.  But I do what I can.

I had to share the awesome news today. Here's praying for the best!